Forgiveness Sunday

There is a great write-up about this Sunday at goarch.org. A much shorter version was posted to Facebook by Dcn. David B. Keim, who wrote:

Forgive me, a sinner. Forgive me because I am a sinner. Because I am connected to creation and, thus, my sins contribute to the fracturing of it. Because the evil I introduce into the world affects you. Because there is no such thing as private sins. Because my sins – even the ones not aimed at you and that you will never know about – are, therefore, sins against you. For all that: forgive me, a sinner.

And so, whoever finds themselves reading this, please forgive me.

“Four of the most powerful words in the world”

I came across this article yesterday after someone drew my attention to it. Although the specifics of the journey differ, it reminds me both of my pre-Camino post easy yokes and light burdens and my actual experience on the Camino. It was encouraging to read considering the not insignificant trek I’m preparing for. The conclusion of the article is worth quoting in full here:

The ready generosity of strangers has been the most important lesson he’s taken from his travels, says [veteran travel writer Don] George, who edited an anthology called The Kindness of Strangers for Lonely Planet Publications.
“It’s been probably the single greatest revelation I’ve had as a traveller . . . that basically the world is full of kindness,” he says.
“If you get into trouble somewhere and you say to somebody ‘I need help’ . . . wow! the whole village comes out to help you and take care of you and I’ve found that time and time again.
I think, ‘Can you help me?’ are four of the most powerful words in the world.”

18 km closer to Jerusalem

The other day, I met up with a friend in Toronto and we went for an 18 km walk through his part of town. This was the first of many such walks we will be taking in the next ten months, and they’re leading up to a pilgrimage to Jerusalem for Pascha in 2015.

I mentioned ten months, since our plan is to start walking to Jerusalem from England. We’ll arrive in London shortly after the feast of the Cross in September and walk down to Canterbury, thereby retracing the late medieval pilgrimage made (in)famous by Chaucer.

...and where is he now?

From Canterbury we’ll walk the Via Francigena to Rome, arriving sometime in mid-December. Although it would be nice to experience Christmas in the Eternal City, we’ll still be less than half way to our goal. At this point, we’ll have walked some 2000 km and will seek a pilgrim’s Testimonium from the Vatican. We’ll probably need to replace our shoes once we reach Rome, and there may even be a few sites worth visiting while we’re here.

From Rome, our next destination will be Bari, where we’ll pay our respects to St. Nicholas after about three weeks of walking.

From Bari, we’ll hop a ferry to Durrës where we’ll pick up the Via Egnatia through the Balkans to İstanbul. I spent ten days in this magnificent city in 2006, and I look forward to spending a few more!

The Great Church

When I first started playing with the idea of this great trek shortly after completing the Camino de Santiago, I’d hoped to walk through Turkey into Syria and then into Lebanon as far south as Beirut. From Beirut I’d have headed east again to Damascus and then through Jordan so that the last section of the journey would have been walking west to Jerusalem.

Clearly, this is no longer feasible. Instead, I’ll retrace the route recorded by Brandon Wilson in Along the Templar Trail. This will bring us to the port city of Alanya, Turkey. From there, it’s a ferry ride to Northern Cyprus and then a walk across the island to Limassol, Republic of Cyprus. From Limassol, we’ll take our fourth and final ferry to Haifa, whence it is an eight day walk to Jerusalem. The Confraternity of Pilgrims to Jerusalem have great information covering this part of our journey.

In the next ten months, I need to get back in shape, learn Turkish, set up a new WordPress blog, and save some money. Yes, I’m excited!

pwned

Okay, perhaps I am to blame for not researching this more diligently before I slapped down my $699 + tax for a brand new BlackBerry Q10. (Fantastic device, by the way!) This is now my fifth BB device, but it is the only one where the problem seems impossible to resolve on my own.

Here’s the situation. I use Speakout Wireless for their pre-paid talk time. On my previous BB devices, I was able to use Speakout’s $10 per month unlimited browsing plan. It’s not a BB data plan, and doesn’t support much more than traffic on ports 80 and 443. For $10 a month, I’m not going to ask for much more.   As a budget wireless provider, S/O doesn’t provide any guarantee or support if a customer uses a non-S/O phone, but the Un-Official Speakout Wireless forums are great. People have been posting about work-arounds for the iPhone, Android, and other smartphones for years.  I’ve used several BBOS devices with stunning success.

A week ago, I walked into a Rogers store and bought a Q10. I told the associate that I wouldn’t need a wireless plan, since I would be unlocking the device and using my current provider. She warned me that LTE probably wouldn’t work, and I assured her I was okay with that.  I even mentioned that I was planning to do some travelling in the near future, and that I’d be using a local SIM to save money while still using my wonderful Q10.  If any of what follows had come out in this initial conversation, I would’ve walked out the door without a phone.  (To be fair, I wouldn’t expect a sales associate to have this level of technical knowledge.)

Apparently, one of the new “features” on the Rogers Q10 is that the option to edit APN settings has been greyed out. To be fair, it’s not only Rogers which has colluded with BlackBerry to prevent users from using their phones to their full potential. Once I started searching for a solution, I discovered the CrackBerry and BlackBerry user forums are actively discussing the issue, but the consensus is that unless the provider you purchased the phone from has specifically enabled editing the APN, there is not much a consumer can do. Some international contributors have reported success with their providers’ SIM inserted, but it is a matter of luck finding a wireless provider that allows consumers the freedom to use the device they’ve paid full price for.

I work long hours throughout the week, and so it’s taken some time for me to piece this all together. My S/O Wireless SIM gives me ltemobile.apn without the possibility of editing this.  My Mobility Pass SIM gave me great hope when I saw that the APN options were open, but as reported on the BlackBerry user forums, the changes are not saved and the device reverts back to the default settings unless the device has been “properly unlocked” by the original provider.

Finally today I decided I had done all that I could reasonably do.  One of my earlier attempts to use social media to contact both Rogers and BlackBerry elicited a response from @RogersHelps that pointed me to the previous link.  With that in mind, I looked up the Rogers support number and started talking.  The individual there said there was nothing Rogers could do, but that BlackBerry could “flash the memory” and unlock the setting for me.  He then offered to transfer me to the BB help line.  Even though this contradicted the information provided to me by @RogersHelps, I agreed to allow him to pass the buck.  Big mistake.

My next interaction was incredibly frustrating.  The BB voice menu I waded through wound up directing my call to someone in the tablet division.  He tried to transfer my call over to someone in handhelds, but apparently at 16:30 EDT there was nobody available.  To give him credit, he agreed to step up and try to help.  Unfortunately, he didn’t seem to understand the details I had given him, and when I commented that his proposed solution wouldn’t work based on what he’d already told me, he hung up on me.  About thirty seconds later I got an automated email from the BB help system notifying me of my ticket number and summarizing the problem as best as this guy could understand it when working outside his area of expertise.  About fifteen seconds after that I got another automated email stating that my ticket had been closed and reporting the proposed solution.  (Contact my carrier and get them to contact BB directly.  Now scroll up to the second paragraph and read it again.  Yeah.)

I called BlackBerry Customer Support back, gave them my ticket number and expressed some frustration at being hung up on.  Then I laid out all the above information and held my breath.  And when Lou repeated my story back to me, he had the details right!  After a short wait on hold while I read the paper and presumably he searched for an answer, he came back with “Contact the provider you bought the phone from.”

And that almost completes the cycle.  I went back to Twitter.

@RogersHelps @BlackBerryHelp Each company’s support line has told me I need to contact the other one to resolve my request for help.

@RogersHelps replied with an offer of help within a minute.  Rather than trying to communicate all of the above 140 characters at a time, I decided to write it up here and send off the link.  Here’s hoping that I’ll be able to take full ownership of my $700 smartphone soon!  As it is, I feel like I’ve been pwned by either Rogers or BlackBerry or both.

The Irish Rovers

Ticket to Ireland: booked!

For two weeks in July, I’ll be catching up with my college roommate, and hopefully visiting with the Bearwakers.  Carsten and I will also be doing some walking, from Enniskillin to Croagh Patrick.  If we take our time, we should cover the roughly 170 km in a week.  It’s not much of a walk, but it will be a good opportunity for us to check our gear and fitness levels in preparation of a slightly longer walk we’re planning to begin next year.  More on that later….

Some thoughts by Pascal

This Friday, I drove down to Buffalo to participate in a “non-denominational theological discussion.” This month’s topic was Pascal’s Wager.

I’d first learned about Blaise Pascal in high school, in the context of his work in mathematics and physics. It was only in my early twenties that I discovered he’d also written some theological works.

In the last few years of his all-too-short life he began preparing notes for a work of Christian apologetics. He died before writing the book, but not before leaving several hundred “thoughts” on as many pieces of paper. He gave no indication of a sequence for these notes, but there have been several editions of his Pensées which have attempted to put them in order. The infamous wager is found in one of the longest of these notes, being several pages in length.

It has been about twenty years since I last read Pascal, so I dug out my copy of the Pensées and spent the last week renewing my acquaintance with this great mind. I shared some of Pascal’s bon mots with the group Friday evening, but I decided he’s too good not to share more. Here, then, are some of my favourite quotes from the Pensées. My hope is that anyone reading this note will find their interest piqued enough to read more. An English translation of the Pensées can be downloaded from Project Gutenberg.

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Truth is often paradoxical. We must begin with that, otherwise we cannot understand anything, and everything then is theoretical. Even at the end of each truth that we may have attained, we have to add that we are bearing in mind the opposite truth.

Mankind suffers from two excesses: To exclude reason, and to live by nothing but reason.

Everything that is incomprehensible does not, however, cease to exist.

Man’s condition is one of inconsistency, of ennui, and of angst.

Power rules the world, not opinion. But it is opinion that exploits power.

People are so inevitably crazy, that not to be crazy would be to give a mad twist to craziness.

Those who have known and spoken most effectively about man’s misery are Solomon and Job. The one is the happiest of men, the other the most miserable. One knows by experience the vanity of pleasure, and the other knows the reality of suffering.

The last scene of the play is bloody, however fine the rest of it. They throw earth over your head, and it is finished forever.

The eternal silence of the infinite spaces fills me with angst.

Atheism does reveal strength of mind, but only to a certain extent.

Let us endeavour to think well; that is the basic principle of morality.

Generally speaking, we are more firmly convinced by reasons that we have discovered for ourselves, than by those which are given to us by others.

Whenever we want to be helpful in convincing someone that he is wrong, and so correct him, we also have to see things from his point of view. For perhaps he is right as he sees it, but he may also need to see things from a different point of view. Perhaps it is in the nature of things that we humans never can see things from every possible angle, and so we cannot see things completely. But this should not upset us, if we realize that this lies behind all wise correction. At the same time, from one’s own point of view, sense perception can be valid.

How difficult it is to submit to someone else’s opinion without being preoccupied about having to do so! It is natural for us to react contrarily; I think something is ugly when you think it is beautiful. That is to say, to think just the opposite of what you want me to think. Perhaps then, it is better to say nothing at all, so that someone else can think more objectively for himself and in the light of his own appropriate context. Then at least you have not interfered, unless your very silence can also be interpreted, or your very gesture, or tone of voice, can also be seen as a form of personal interference. How very difficult it is not to upset someone else’s judgment; or to express this in another way, how rare it is for personal opinion to be seen firmly and consistently!

Aversion for the truth exists in differing degrees, but it may be said to exist in every one of us to some degree, for it is inseparable from self-love.

There are two sources of error: to take everything literally, and to take everything spiritually.

In brief, true faith seeks equally to maintain two positions. First, it claims that God has appointed visible evidence in the church so that he can be plainly seen by those who genuinely seek him. Second, it claims that God conceals the evidence in such a way that he will only be seen by those who seek him with all their heart.

We have to know when to doubt, when to affirm what is certain, and when to submit. Anyone who acts otherwise does not understand the force of reason. There are some who break all these three principles, either affirming that everything can be proved, because they know nothing about proofs, or doubting everything because they know nothing about when to submit, or always submitting because they do not know when they must use their judgment.

What a vast difference there is between the acknowledgement of, and the experience of, the love of God!


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Finally, here is the “Memorial” which was found sewn into Pascal’s jacket after his death. It was hand-written on paper, hastily jotted down on the night of November 23, 1654. (There was also a second copy along with the first, written neatly on parchment with a few minor changes and corrections.) This experience came after he had already been making notes for the Pensées for two years, and eight years before his death on August 19, 1662 at the age of 39.

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Year of Grace 1654

Monday 23 November, feast of St. Clement, Pope and Martyr, and of others in the Martyrology.

Eve of St. Crysogonus, martyr and others.

From about half past ten at night to about half an hour after midnight,

FIRE

“God of Abraham, God of Isaac, God of Jacob,” not of philosophers and scholars.  [Exodus 3:6]

Certitude, heartfelt joy, peace.

God of Jesus Christ.

God of Jesus Christ.

“My God and Your God.” [John 20:17]

“Your God shall be my God.” [Ruth 1:16]

The world forgotten, everything except God.

He can only be found by the ways that have been taught in the Gospels.

Greatness of the human soul.

“O righteous Father, the world has not know You, but I have known You.” [John 17:25]

Joy, Joy, Joy, tears of joy.

I have separated myself from him.

“They have forsaken me, the spring of living water.” [Jeremiah 2:13]

“My God, will you leave me?” [Matthew 27:46]

Let me not be cut off from him for ever!

“Now this is eternal life: that they may know you, the only true God, and Jesus Christ, whom you have sent.” [John 17:3]

Jesus Christ.

Jesus Christ.

I am separated from him; for I have shunned him, denied him, crucified him.

May I never be separated from him.

He can only be kept by the ways taught in the gospel.

Complete and sweet renunciation. And so forth.